Time Has Gone So Fast. Been a year now...

Since I graduated, 5 years of tears and joy in college. Took 2 board exams and failed, then got depressed over time to time. Then one day came I read/heard a quote from a fictional character in a movie.

Who?

Rocky Balboa. And here's what he said,

"Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain’t all sunshine and rainbows. It’s a very mean and nasty place, and I don’t care how tough you are, it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain’t about how hard you hit. It’s about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward; how much you can take and keep moving forward. That’s how winning is done! Now, if you know what you’re worth, then go out and get what you’re worth. But you gotta be willing to take the hits, and not pointing fingers saying you ain’t where you wanna be because of him, or her, or anybody. Cowards do that and that ain’t you. You’re better than that!"

Thank you fictional character. It's not how hard I could hit, it's about how many hits I could take and keep moving forward.

I'll do my best and get that license. ^^,

~Derrick

I FEEL LOST. AND MISERABLE.

I just feel down and so lost at the moment. And so miserable.

I failed again. Pinaghirapan kong mag-aral ng 5 months, pero anong napala ko? Nauwi sa wala yung pag-gising ko ng maaga para mag-aral lang. Yung tiniis kong mga sermon ni daddy at mga utos ni kuya. Yung isang kaklase ko, 1 linggo lang sya nag-review, pero siya pa ang naging conditional sa isang subject.

Limang buwan. Actually sampung buwan ko ng inaaral tong apat na subjects na to. Lahat ng pagod, iniyak at pawis na ginawa ko sa nakalipas. Wala. Ganun lang. At ganun kasakit. Mapapaisip ka na lang sa isang point ng buhay mo, ang sakit, saan ba ako nagkulang? Saan ba lagi? Kulang ba ako sa aral? Kulang ba ako sa dasal? Kulang ba ako sa pagiging mabait? Saan?

Ewan ko. Di ko kayang maging masaya dahil sa paghihirap ko, wala pa ring napala.  WALA. ZERO.

Gusto kong balibagin lahat ng mga binasa ko, lahat ng mga tanong na pinagtiyagaan kong basahin, lahat ng mga sinolve ko at inintindi ng mag-isa. Dahil wala akong kwentang tao. Gusto kong punitin, sunugin at itapon.


Tinalo pa ako ng 1 week before na aral.

I'll leave you a song that's so right for this moment.

~Derrick

/ragequit
 

3 Weeks to go! Let's do this! :D

Hello guys! i'll just leave you again a musical score that lights me up as always. :)

You wreck it! (You wreck it!)
You fix it! (You fix it!)

~Derrick 

Lord, please guide me.

Lord, I know this might sound selfish, but I am asking you to please guide me on this month and the last 2 weeks to go. I've been preparing so hard at the same time, trying to exhaust every materials that has been given and gathered this past time.

I will do my very best, and I'll be waiting to get my license. Nothing is impossible with you and I believe. There is time for everything and I know you have the perfect plan for all of us.

I'm praying foll all of my classmates that we all be guided to make the right answers and be prepared for the 2 days to come. Thank you for everything always.

Amen.

~Derrick

Stay positive challenge. :)

Good vibes this morning! :D

~Derrick

This time I'll say... Be positive! Be happy!

Hi hi hi again. :)

Just went here to post that no matter happens, I'll try to be positive up to next month and be happy.

I'll stop this nonsense just because someone probably hates me for not passing the exam. But whatever, it's my life and I'm going to live it, my style!

So you out there, stop being lonely, think positive and be happy and do what you really want to do!

~Derrick

PS. Silent reader, I'll send that GIMP link once I stop being lazy. Haha... ;)

AHHHHHH!!! I'M GONNA WRECK IT!

Hi there guys! I'm back again! Feeling happy and somehow sad somewhere again... :)

Today I'm going to recommend to all of you one movie that I came across this past few weeks and watched it finally. And what do you know? Wreck-It-Ralph it is!

To get started, here are some concept arts:

Link for the trailer ( My browser just crashes suddenly, think I need to update it.)

Wreck it Ralph Trailer

I definitely recommend it for all ages, gamers and non-gamers alike. Wink wink.

I'll leave you with one of my favorite songs from the movie. It just feels good to listen to something. :)

~Derrick

Aral Kuno? Ows Talaga?

Saksak mo sa baga mo! Aral kuno? Tangna tignan natin, ihanda mo na yang mukha dahil malamang supalpal yan pag pumasa ako. Di ka na nadala na kapag 2nd time kong kinukuha ang isang bagay pumapasa ako. Di kita papatawarin sa lahat ng mga sinabi mo saking masasakit na salita.

Di ako robot, napapagod din utak ko, saksak mo din sa baga mo leche.

Naiiyak na ako sa sobrang rami.

Magandang gabi! :)

Naiiyak na ako sa sobrang raming pumapasok sa isip ko na mga reviewer. As in, di na ako masyadong natutulog at talagang todo ako na mag-aral (well, siguro half lang).

Sana magbunga tong ginagawa kong pag-aral. Ang sakit na talaga ng ulo ko, kala kasi ng ibang tao dito sa bahay ang dali lang. try niyo kayang magpasok ng halos 8000+ ng questions at problems. Tapos 400 lang dun ang kukunin sa board exam.

So Lord please guide me. This time po makapasa na ako. :')

~Derrick

PS: Thanks for the views guys! Haven't really updated myself on Hanks movies so sorry! Busy again reviewing. Hope I get my license. 

I Lay in Bed at Night Feeling Alone in a Raft or Island.

Hi there. It's me again, haven't watch some tom hanks movie still.

Been busy on what to do with my life now. I lay in bed at night feeling alone in a raft or island, slowly drifting away.

While the end credits sound repetitively plays inside my head, I have always think, I must be drowning, and I just needed some help.

Still hanging to my own invisible Wilson.

~Derrick